Dear 2010 bye

Dear 2010 I am going to miss as you are going another hour ..forgive me if I didn't care for u ...forgive me if I forgot you ...Thank you for all happiness that you gave to my life ...
My last text for 2010
life without pain
world without war
Endless love

we were 3

we were three when we started
God , you and me
we reached a road
with 2 different ways
God turned right
You turned left
I stopped
My heart followed you
My faith followed God
Now I am here
with out love
without hearth
without you
without God
curse this diversity
this doubt ...

Never came

I asked you "promise love me for ever??!" ...
you told "yes Love you for ever" ...I asked you do you leave me ? you told "never never" . I searched in my calender to see when is never ..there was no clue of that ...later ..
you left me dear I think that " never" came and took you back ....
.just am living with your " Ever "promise ...

just look at me

draw a circle around me
with your both hands
keep me in that circle
save me
of all damage
just let me rest
middle of your arms
just look at me
look at my eyes
I am full of love
pain
draw a circle
around me
keep me in that circle

my root

I am searching
with all my root
in this land
to find you
your love
your care
how deep should I go
to reach you?

horse man

I am crossing the road of love
with you or without you
I know one day you will be here
at the end of this road
you are my horse man

Time

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Is it really me that I kill time ?
or is it time that killing me ?!

when I expected ....

Not even one word
Just tears
my eyes knows two things
waiting and expecting for u
my eyes has one thing for u
just tears
in my up and down
tears because of happiness and sadness
nothing else ....

TODAY

I love today
As I am full of Love
Sorrow cant come inside
no place
no way
As I am full of Love

empty place

What should I do
with the empty place of one that I love ...I care ...???

Dream of the day you come

You left by last winter
fortuneteller told you will come soon
what should I bring
when you come back
garden full of flower
a hand full of my sorrow
no
I should bring thousands stars
for my sun
my moon
what can I bring
less than star???

trust me

Trust me
I was so pure
when u hugged me
trust me
your hands
touched all my pain
all my sorrow
I gave all my sadness
you gave all your happiness

with birds you will come back

I know when birds come back
you will come back ....promise me
you will remember me....

I am lucky

When you shouted
I understood
how lovely you are
how lucky I am
how great you are
I wept deeply
not because of pain
but
because of all you gave to me..
how lucky I am ....

rise

Tomorrow I will come
with sunset
as
I am not dare to rise again

bigger promise

Yet I remember you
the day of sorrow
the day of love
every day
every moment
you were there
you promised
you gave a big promise to me
when u left
I hold it
every time
every moment
in your absent
I review it
I taste it
come back and
give me bigger promise ....

expecting

It is not fair
dead people always expecting people
but
No one expect dead people....

your shadow became ...

I wept deeply
when I saw your shadow
became longer...
I realized you are leaving ....

thousands tomorrow

I review thousands tomorrow
every day
till u come back...
I review thousands
picture of
our love
till you come....
still when I review your eyes
in your absent
my face become red ...
even dream of you give life to me ...

price of ....

Do you know
yesterday
behind our road
sales was going on
some one was selling love
price was one heart
pure heart
I couldn't buy
as I gave my heart to you
even I had no photo of my heart
to prove it
I came back....
with out love
promise me
you will bring so much love
promise me
you will never break that heart
promise me ....

Just for u

To my Dearest, nearest .....
I have written you once again ...

keep the faith

one step of freedom
one punch of love
full eyes of tears
three steps of hope
a glance full of fear
one moment of life
one glass of faith
one smile full of love
All I gave to bring you back ...

promise me

promise me
when u come back
you will look at me with love
not with sympathy...
promise me
when you come back
you touch me with love
not with pain
promise me ......

gray hair

In your absent in the mirror
every night checked a new gray hair
it is long time you left
now a days
I check to find some black hair
nothing is there
in your absent all became gray

sorrow

Just sorrow was there
me and sorrow came together
hope and happiness left me
I think they came with you
sorrow stayed back with me
we don't talk much
just he is there...

my face in his absent

mirror remind my pain
when I saw my face
new lines were there
every night I count hours in his absent
every day added one line in my face
now there are so many lines ...
in his absent ....
is he able to remember me with all lines????

draw your love

give me a pencil
to draw your absent
one color is enough
just black ...
give me pencil to draw your love
hundred color are not enough...

your path

you went from this road
days ago
years ago
I followed your steps
everyday
every night
to see where u went
are u coming back from same road??

my last page

I am tired of running alone ...
for my sake hold my hand
read my last chapter with me
let me breath
one more time
let me die in peace
let me smile
close my eyes for ever
then you can go.....

dream less

In your absent my dear Saturday
I became helpless
hopeless
dream less
my dream of your pure light
became so small
do you remember me yet???

My only dream is you

close your eyes
give birth to new dream
let it grow
every night
I deliver my dream
dream of the day you come back
I go through so much pain
but
yet I close my eyes to
see my dream ...
As you are my lovely dream...

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childhood dream

HE came at last! with the promise he made to me in childhood; With a 100 roses and a ring amidst it. in return i was to give a smile! instead came tears. I left with what he had to give me. It was too late,hE DIDN'T realise I had grown up; and my childhood dream had become SMALL! My dream brought TEARS and not a SMILE. He ARRIVED TOO LATE!!!!!!

Remember me

Remember me
when you are struggling
when you are up
and even down
Remember my last cry
my last kiss
Remember my last hug
my last try to stop you
My last smile
My last deep breath...
remember me

my only happiness

They asked to share our happiness
I told no
my only happiness is you
I can't share it with any one ...
how can I share you ...
my only hope
my only love .......

drunk

x

You asked me : what is wrong with you?
I told I am drunk
you told
I have nothing to do with a drunk girl
you left me
now in your absent I am mad
half dead
and
you never found
I was drunk of your love
now I am half dead
half mad
give me a chance to be a drunk of your present...

my only reason

my only reason
to fight
to smile
to go
to come
to sit
to breath
to bow down
to jump
to climb
is only you
and your love
if u take it away
I will surely
do one thing
will die.....
no fight
no cry
no breath
no jump...

breath in

Pick up a gift box
breath in it
breath in deeply
close is
post it
with speed post
as I am breathless here without u
I am in the last breath
send it to me
my only dream ....

your childhood photo...

I kept your innocence picture inside a frame ....
I kept a cross next to it...
one verse of holly book
punch of flower
and holly ash from temple ...
I called all God and Goddess
to protect you and bring you back
....my only moon ....

My smile

my smile to my executioner,who is the only one that comes for only one death blow...not more than one ...that he play his ax just on my neck not on my heart.

don't delay...just do it

My granny told me "when u want to say something just wait and think and don't be in hurry as might it hurt some one or create some problem for u ....many days wanted to tell you how great u are but I didn't tell and now it is too late to tell you ...too late ...I will teach my grand children just do it .........as tomorrow might be so late ....

worship

I found you
my innocence love
took you home
kept you there
to give love
and beloved by you
now I am worshiping you
forgive me ....
there is big gap between me and you
you are God
I am your servant ..

Hope

I was waiting in arrival gate
to see hope
as they told he is on the way.....
oh God I was wrong
He was leaving from departure Gate ...
news was correct he was on the way but in other way .....
I came back without hope ....
I came back with so much pain...

miss my breath

In my birth day, you called me to remind me how you still remember me .How you went through pain of giving birth to me and now yet you are carrying all pain of missing me. How great you are my dearest mother. I miss you and my land ...I miss my breath and big question is what should I do ? what I am doing here...studying literature to learn how love is important in life but you know that without going to college...you gave all your life to teach it and I am searching it in books ...forgive me for my mistake...

crossing ...

Let me breath
one more time
let me write
one more time
to
tell
how painful
is your absent ....

let me breath..

I am searching for your shadow
To share my loneliness
To escape of my sadness
Don’t escape
Please
Don’t escape
Stop for a moment
Let me breath....

I have to leave....

I have to collect my luggage
As I decided to go
What should I keep in that?
My memory of your land
The history of our love
The memory of all your care
Your picture
Your smile
Your anger
How heavy I am
To move
To leave your land
To go
With whom should I share?
Where do I belong?
From now onward
Thousands sunset and sunrises
I had in your place
I can’t imagine
Start again
How heavy I am
My dear friend
My dear love
My dear teacher
You thought me
Love
Care
Trust
Hope
To whom should I give?
All that you gave me!

where is my horse man?

My horseman
who promised
will never give up
today
I miss your care
miss your care
miss all your care

nothing except trust

Trust you
trust you
trust you
no more word
all is you
and just trust
trust that you will be back
trust that u are fine
trust that u are happy
trust that u will never leave me...

miss my breath

I try to touch your place
that you live there
just pain is there
with my first attempt
blood moved
pain and blood
didn't let me
worship you
touch you
I am sick
in this ice land
I try to make myself warm
no result
my breath is colder than air
walk with pain
to see sun set
to tell her
that I am dying here
But
I reach so late
she left before
I know she is there with you
to make your day bright
I didn't see this much
darkness
here is dark
trust me
It is heavy to carry
trust me that I am so cold
trust me all light went when you left me
where is my land ? my place ?
I am from no where ....
I wanna to close my eyes and rest for ever....

fly

what is different
between night and day
between
dark and light
between today
and tomorrow
when No one is there for u
I am here
far
far
far
lonely than God
silent than silence
bring me wing
mines is broken
I want to fly
some one
is burning
our
garden
come fast....
bring me punch of feather

live

You told me to live
to avoid of death
I am dying
to live without you...

Rainbow

I Believe strongly
the beauty of rainbow
will be the reward of
people
that stand in rain longer than others..

My love is my God

My love is time less
Place less
He is every where
And
No where
He is big and great
But it become small as much as I can carry it
He become father
To fill the empty place of my father
He becomes a child
To fill the empty place of child in my life
He removes my tears
When I cry
He holds me when I am not stable
He pushes me when I fear to move
He brings hope for me when I am hope less
He waits for me
When I am late
He feeds me when I am hungry
He makes me warm
When I am cold
He makes me cold
When I have fever
He supports me
When I need
He listens to me
When I speak
He cries with me
When I cry
He gives me love
When I am full of hate
He smile when I shout
He walks with me slow
When I am slow
He covers me
When it is raining
He become sun
When I am in dark road
He become hope
When I am hopeless
He is aware
When I am unaware
He becomes conscious
When I am unconscious
He is awake
When I sleep
He is soft
When I am harsh
He is friend
When I surrounded by enemy
He stands on my side
When all stand opposite
He is brave
He calls me softly
Lovely
He forgive me
When I do mistake
He gives me reward
When I do right
He never leaves me
He never brake his promise
He suffer because of me
But
Never put blame on me
He carries all heavy
And
Brings comfort for me
Just tell me
What else I need
Just tell me
Do I have right?
To call him
My love, my God

you gave your love ,I will give my life to u

To you that brought light in my life

I hold my promise

for ever and ever

I keep you in the centre of my heart

in deepest place

in longest part

that no harm come to u

all my soul and flesh

surrounded u

no one can find

your place

to take it

stay there for ever .....and ever

you are safe

remain safe

this is my promise

to my love

my future man...

My love carry moon

My love carry moon

every night

and

keep it on the top of my house

he is strong

every night

moon is different

he make it different

give me your hand

to kiss

to remove

all pain

give me your shoulder

to kiss to remove

the pain that

come to u

everyday by carrying moon

days and week

months and years

moon was not interest

to come here

now my love bring it

every night

just for me

to make my life bright

yes this is my moon....