Memory of 2011

Unedited me

This is me !

This is me !

This is my unedited reality

Do you know me?

Have you ever seen me?

I can see the lines on my face

It is unedited 

I just removed my thick masque 

So painful 

This is my unedited  face

With masque or without it 

my dream is the same

Dream about future with you

holding my dream

The farm was too much big 

The farm was too much far 

That is why I lost you 

There is one inside my heart 

 whispering your name ...

 

Some one is whispering your name,,,,

I think that one who whisper your name 

Is holding my dream ...

I am begging you

I am begging you ...
To hold me with your two hands ...

Snow fall

We had beautiful snow fall ...since yesterday...behind this window was beautiful ..when I looked deeper I saw that some of the trees has broken as heavy snow...Oh God some of them still were standing ...what was the reason ...I asked myself .In that perfect day ..have any one bother about a broken tree...? I don't think so 
I never thought white snow can break a tree. Is it his fault ? Behind this window life is going ...sometimes too fast ...behind this window ..a man is daring to dream...behind this window there is a man who is destroying his today to build tomorrow...inside of this room there is a woman who is not dare to shout ! there is a woman who is still breathing ...She is singing an old song ...she is whispering everyday ...she still is alive ...But behind of this room people are digging a small and deep tomb for her...they think she is not alive anymore......  

Feel lost

I feel lost in this land 
I lost my freedom 
I lost my happiness
I lost my hope 
I lost my liberty 
I lost my dreams
I lost my memory 
But yet something is here

Your love never left me ...

Even in this Hell

I've been missing you 
My dearest 
Even in this hell 
I've been missing you
Even in this sorrow
I've been missing you
What about you? 

I scared

Life sometimes is just hell
when we search for peace 
and find nothing except sorrow
so there is only one thing to do 
there is only one way to go 
No life we can find in this battlefield 
I scared 
In the country 
that I expected to protect me 
That I expected to remove my pain and sorrow
I scared 
Behind this wall 
There is a woman
Who cries in pain 
I scared 
of all shadows ...enemy could be anyone
I run from day to day
To save my life ....

They think I am alone

 They don't know where is my root
They can't find it
Not even know it
I will stand ...

Boat people

which side should I go ?
To find you
To find my freedom
To find my  life
which side is safe?
which side bring peace to me?

My Dear Sleep

I have to go

But I am sure

will be back

one day .....believe me

I will call God

To be with you

You are no longer a child

I am going to find

Our dream land

I will be back

maybe with next rain

or next snowfall ...

or next spring ...

Sleep now ....

I left few things there

sweet liberty

All my freedom

peace of mind

All my life

Even God

I left even hope ...

Someone knocking on the door

Asked me something

Borderline ...!

He is asking streng question

Where is your land !

Tears are in my eyes ...

I answer it is there   ...

And show my heart ...

You must believe me ..!

Yesterday gone

Don't come back

Today is dark

Don't come back

Tomorrow is far

Don't comback

Saturday gone

Don't come back

perfect man

Where is the perfect man ?

The one who can see pain in our eyes

The one who can see our sorrow

The one who can feel our Love

The one who can read our eyes

Where is the perfect man ?!

Freedom

I am surrounded by four walls

Slowly ask myself

Am I alive ?

Am I free?


Do I have freedom?

I am surrounded by four walls

Four walls to save me ! ?

or maybe

To take all my Freedom ....

Nobody knows

I lost some one
some where
I lost something
some where
I lost something that was everything
In this silent world
Nobody knows, what I lost
Nobody knows about us
Nobody knows our secret...
Nobody knows ...

sscrawl

I pick up a pen
To draw a picture
My lines just show pain
It is painful
Like the moment you left

My past in present

All my memory
The picture of you
In the framework of my heart
All became gray
In your absence

You are tomorrow
To see you
I have to forget today
I have to go away of today
I have to sell all present
To reach you
You are tomorrow ...

I went back to find you
day by day
you became far
I am not lost
don't worry
I am still here
not giving up
I am going ...
I have to fight
I have one more breath
will give it
to take next step
to find you...

why you had to go?

There is an question, in the corner of my mind. never asked you / why you had to go? Is there any answer ? So let me to know / I am here / waiting for you / My heart is burning / If you were here I wouldn't hesitate to smile/ If you were here I wouldn't cry/ If you were here I wouldn't ... But you are not here .../ It is all reality ...you are not here...

Review of past

These days I review all I know about you about my self about us I know all by heart our walk in the pieceful land your promise my faith all I know by heart I have nothing here except all that I had there....

I am here one more time All I wanna is one more chance one chance to see one chance to live one chance to wisper the last message that I told you...

All that I want

All I want for today
All I want for tomorrow
Is just one more chance
To live ,to see,to wisper
How painful is this journey
How sad is this life
Give me one more chance
To see , to breath
These are all that I want...

Tomorrow with you

If tomorrow comes, I will tell it how great was yesterday with you
If tomorrow comes, I will tell it how lovely was yesterday with you
If tomorrow comes, I will ask him why he came with out you..

counting in your absent

I close my eyes
and count
1
2
3
4
how long should I count
to find you
my only dream

Moon and Me

Moon was waiting for sun
I was waiting for you
You were late ...even sun
Moon and me both were wondering
should we go ?
or should we wait for you...both

Is it late ?

No one asked me Do you want to come?
No one asked me Do you want to stay?
No one asked me Do you want to go?

To whom ?

To one that never exist
To one that I know him
To one that I love him
To one that I lost him
some where
some days

Gap

These Days there is a gap
between me and myself
I am doing many things
That I don't like myself

How free I am

How free I am
I can select my grave yard
In the corner of cemetery
or near the center
I can buy a tomb
As my Grand father did
I can design my tomb with flower
I can go every day there
Sit and cry for my self

Absent

In your absent
My hand forgot your hand
My eyes forgot your picture
But my heart is not able to forget you
Which part of my heart you are sitting?

nothing except you

my hand didn't write any thing except you
My eyes didn't see any one except you
Just your name and nothing except you
you the only heavenly man in my life

Far away

old Gardner kept you far ..
He doesn't know my root reached you ...

I lost something ...some one ..

I lost something ..
some one
something like everything
some one not like any one
I lost thousands moment
thousands hours
yet waiting
in the corner
to see you when you walk
I lost you ....
when I was turning
just waiting ...

where is the star ?

I am searching just for one star
in this dark night
open your eyes
make my road
for a moment bright ...

where should I search?

Read my eyes
listen to all that I never told
I never told
How...why ....where ...
I just told ..
I just want
your smile .

Hold me for ever

My past ,my present ,my future
my life , my happiness , my aim
all is you ...with you ...in you
do you know ?
do you believe ?
do you accept ?
hold me for ever
hold me for ever ....

You were my teacher

You all became my teacher
you thought me
care , humanity ,love ....
All of you became part of this journey ....

Smile

smile when you read me
when u re read me

The Road of God is green

Photo By Mr.M. Ghafari

I believe
The absent of you
is present
in the green road
I just read you
used to re read you
I just trust u
Trust that u are present
Trust that everything will change ....
Trust that nothing has changed ...

smile

I bow down
with pain
with sorrow
and
just one memory
make me smile
memory of your smile....

with you

Dream

I share my dream with you
It will be survive
I am sure
you will give life to all my dream....

Bird in cage

Don't blame the bird
that doesn't know how to fly
Cage become small and smaller
Now there is no way to fly
No place even to dream ...

count from zero to 30

After I leave your land ...count from zero to thirteen ...one by one
I will be back ..if not means am not alive ...then you go without me ...carry our love
...don't wait any more ...

angel not white and pure

I saw angel with Black dress
I asked her "we know angel with white dress"
she answered "In this land they will kill angel with white dress ...I put black to be survive....after that day I follow all people that put on black and say hi to them ...maybe one of them is angel ..

No one can stop me

I review your last smile

I review your last promise

I review your last hug

no one can stop me
no one can stop me
even death...

far ...far ...

My moon, My life , My love
Hold me with both hands
Life is taking me away
going far ...far ...far

your shadow stopped ..

Your shadow were more kindness
when you left
with out pause
He stopped for a awhile...

keep all your pain on my shoulder

Give me your pain
one by one
keep your sorrow
one bye one
on my shoulder
as I am here to carry
carry pain of love
carry pain of care
keep all your pain
one by one on my shoulder
I am able to carry all ...

Dream

I hate all Friday that is without my saturday

your shadow

After you left
I say hi to all shadow in this place
I smile to all of them
might one be your shadow
searching for it
to sit next to it ...