Friend

He came once again
he became a friend
full of sorrow
they celebrated new arrival
one day not so far
they will sit together
in their old age
they will keep talking
about their love story
about River and his lover
they will imagine that days
He will smile
and
she will weep
He will remember
her smile
and she will remember
her painful love
once again he will touch her hand
he will remember his ring
they smile sadly
they will say leave it ....

shadow

I had a dream
still is there
I want to keep it safe
winter is coming
lets go to the garden
the place we walked every week
lets go to the garden that we promised
the place we jumped
we played
we made fun of life
we forgot life
lets go there
dig that corner
near the lake
then we keep my dream there
it will be for ever
as my Granny told
land never forget his promise
he will give back much more
lets go to that garden

My thought and the reality

My thought about him
was sweet as my dream
the reality was horrible
much more than a tragedy
I am walking alone
and leaving him behind
not because of hate
but because of love
I will never look back
I saw him when I should not see
I am going away slowly ....
this is my last ....
as he was center of my poem ..

Your Name

Your Name in me is a big garden full of flower

News came of your arrival

My dear Holy love
The news came ....of your arrival..
I told my hands ...and they shivered
I told my eyes...and they wept
I told my lips...and they trembled
I told my feet ...and they shook
I told my heart ...and it beat out a welcome
Then I realised your place in me forever.

My Moon

My love came once again
He became the Moon
in my dark life
He was blue and calm
but
I found him so far
cloud came and cover him
I wept deeply
when I opened my eyes
he was there again
He told me wait
this is the way
that I come and go
just trust me that I am here
He became so bright
he made my path clear
I asked him where you were ?
he told me "No where"
"just you see that I am here Now"

My River and Me

And once again i met him
he became a river
Blue and pure

it was different
my river had two faces
with one face,he assured me
to wait for him
that he is coming

and with other face
he ran out of my sight

and
when I touched him
he made me understand
and told

"This is how I come and Go"
I was deeply amazed by him

Time friendly touched my shoulders and
whispered into ears
dont give up

"Listen to his heart"

and I listened to him
with all my soul

he told,
"I come and go "
But I never leave You never

When i open my eyes,
I saw his ring in my hand.

Something happened to me.
I saw my real love ,waiting in the corner

to jump in the fire and prove all her love to him
and I jumped
I burnt deeply

for my lovely river
he will be survive for ever.

for find peace how far I have to go

I am a fallen tree

I am a fallen tree
no one can give trouble more
to a fallen tree

Dont call me brave any more I am a loser

This is the last news that I am going to send to you.I gave up yesterday when a big sorrow found my address and knocked the door for my house.
I expected a friend or lover but not sorrow.
He came when I was a little tired of difficulty of my life.
I was shocked yet I am .
Dear Daddy should I be sorry about my weakness.
I gave up and it is the reality of your brave daugther.
I have one more bad news ,I lost my hope;you know how much hope I had for future.
I lost all that hope.
Sorrow came inside my place and ruined everything.You don't know how much I am tired.
Tired of fighting alone running alone and struggling to bring family together.
It is my last news,sorrow took all that I had
I sat in the corner of my room and I wept deeply
no one was there to touch my sadness
and I tried to wash all my sorrow with my tears
My dear How could you gave up when death came to you !
I am wondering if you had pain or there was no pain
But dear daddy sorrow brought so much pain in my heart ;the place that still has so much love for you captured with the hand of sorrow.
my dear daddy believe me as always you believed me I gave up fully.
don't call me any more brave .

No no i can never be down,i can never fail.
I have achieved so much in life ,which many can just dream.Why for i am
sad.Life is so good and Sun shining bright,Moon is in all its moonlight with me.

My saturday is with me as my sun,moon and river.I need not fear any one.
I swear u dear father like a great ship i will sail the deepest of ocean and reach my
goal.

Pardon me for thinking wrong.

I was utterly astonished at his goodness

But alas

Saturday

You became the sun of my dark life
when I tried to look at you fully
I became blinded
by your pure light

"living your life "

She was wondering how she could explain her idea to him. Her new friend was attempting to explain his ideology behind life to her.
She was listening unquestioningly
He asked,"Are you listening?".She replied uninterestedly,! "Yes I am."
Later he asked her about her idea of life.
She replied sadly, that she hardly knew whether she was living or dead any more.
Her life was no more her own, So was she truly alive!?
She reminisced she had a life once, but the world snatched it away from her.
It was terrible feeling, death.
But she persevered and struggled until one day she got a semblance of her
life back.
Now she was happy again. But the world around her
started complained and mourned.
Now she was confused, why was the world unhappy
when she was alive again?
Didn't they understand her happiness and enjoy it?
It was then she realised that her definition of life was different from theirs.
What was expected of her was not necessarily what she wanted to do.
The life she wanted to lead was not the life they wanted her to live.
She asked him,"So what do you think ?Am I dead or alive?"

Not my will however,but your will done.

The meaning of her name was agirl belongs to a king's family .That name was not relevent.Later they called her by other name .The meaning of her second name was a person who pray alot.
Juxtaposition of names,it is clear that the characteristic of these two names cant be in one person.Kings family has no connection with pray.
She didnt know why her parents choose that name .Maybe no one knew what kind of life she is going to have.later she selected new name when she came to know God .It was her spiritual name .Even new identity didnt bring any change in her life.No matter what others call u .It is the only matter what identity had given to you by him.