"living your life "

She was wondering how she could explain her idea to him. Her new friend was attempting to explain his ideology behind life to her.
She was listening unquestioningly
He asked,"Are you listening?".She replied uninterestedly,! "Yes I am."
Later he asked her about her idea of life.
She replied sadly, that she hardly knew whether she was living or dead any more.
Her life was no more her own, So was she truly alive!?
She reminisced she had a life once, but the world snatched it away from her.
It was terrible feeling, death.
But she persevered and struggled until one day she got a semblance of her
life back.
Now she was happy again. But the world around her
started complained and mourned.
Now she was confused, why was the world unhappy
when she was alive again?
Didn't they understand her happiness and enjoy it?
It was then she realised that her definition of life was different from theirs.
What was expected of her was not necessarily what she wanted to do.
The life she wanted to lead was not the life they wanted her to live.
She asked him,"So what do you think ?Am I dead or alive?"