Moon and sun

All my night

here without you is full of sorrow

All my day

here without you is full of sorrow

All my life

here without you is full of sorrow

from my window

I have two visitor

day and night

sun and moon

I know if moon comes five times

If sun comes five times

you will be back

I count from now

moon and sun

their coming and going ....

How can go ...?

My dream still
is holding life
my heart is wonder
between me
and my dream
this is me with out Saturday ......

who is like you ?

To you dear passenger

To you dear passenger

that going to leave me

to you that going to capture your dream

let me be once honest with you

when you go I will cross the line of pain

I will cross the breathless life

I will cross the deepest sorrow

to you that decided to leave

this is my claim to you

I will divide moon to thousands pieces

I will not let it remind me your absent

still standing

Before you leave

I had no clue

of loneliness

I had no fear

No pain

but now I have all

pain ,sorrow

yet I am standing

waiting for u

It was so late

It was so late
to save
to help
to stop
It was so late
to talk
to hear
to beg
It was so late
bring back smile
give you happiness
it was so late
it was the time of fail
sorrow
sadness
and you asked me
to stay with you
how should I explain
the chaos
to you
your world is pure
white
just remember
I am sorry
I came so late
so late

no one except you

No one can find our pain that we went through except ourselves...

No one can find about the moment of joy we went through that to gether except ourselves..

No one can find about the moment we took the apple of tree ....

No one can feel our pain of missing

our joy of finding

the only picture I have is full of shadow

no one can realise and feel

the joy of the moment that we took it

except ourseves..

No one is here to remove pain of missing you except

my dream of your smile...

No one can find the land in our garden

that we discovered together

that I hide all our memory

in the corner of lake ...

No one except atree that was there with us ..

My first and my last

My heart was blue

but now it became gray

It was sunny

now is cloudy

It was warm

Now its cold

It was alive

Now its ......

How far is from calm to lonelyness
from anger to calm
from pain to cry
from life to die
if I go nonstop
ceaseless
breathless
how long it takes time ?
how far should I go
to find peace

Second coming!!!

To you might coming
No one is here
let me be honest with you
no one is waiting for u
no one is expecting you
I have nothing to share
nothing to tell
nothing to give
I don't need anything
I don't want anyone
remember if u are coming
I cant love you
I cant worship you
I cant even fight with you
I cant make you happy or sad
I cant make you angry
I will look at your eyes
but I cant see you
you can touch me
but I cant feel it
you can give me your program
like your PC
with any language
I will use it
but I cant feel it
there is "I"here any more
I cant cry for you
I cant smile
you can hold me
but I will never hold you
I can listen but I never hear you
There is big bridge between me
and the world of my sense
you cant pass of that bridge
you can live with me
full time
But only you will take my time
my body will be there with you
but my soul will not be there
I have no geography location
where you can find my soul
it is somewhere
with someone
don't search
I searched
I couldn't find
all and all
I told
this is
me
me
me
are you still want to come??????

love can die

Love can grow up

love can go

love can come

lovecan smile

love can promise

love can laugh

love can put on weight

Love can lose weight

Love can break his promise

love can leave you on the way

love can keep u safe

love can change his mentality

love can be double

love can be so big

love can be small

love can go to market
love can get lost

love can be worry

love can cry

love can shout

love can get tired

get worry

love can have cold

love can have fever

love can be mad

love can be fat

but remember

love can not do onething......

All that I want

All that I want
All that I wanted
All that I seek
All that I needed
Alll and All
was and is you

All I have with in me

Do u know who am I ?
this is me
in your absent
take a hand of
mud
remember me ..

cry out

I couldn't stop my river as no one be able to stop a river .The moment I tried to hold him
he found another way .

you were here
still I feel it
the greenery of my life
all shows u were real
you were here
still I feel it
all I had to offer u
was broken and nothing more...

over and over and over again

Point to one
Who always is present
to one
who is great
who is
in my beginning
in my end
who always be present in
my pain
in my tears

weeping may endure for a night

I gave all that I had to my first arrival
what can I give u now?
there is neither hope nor dream

maybe tomorrow be better day

Expecting you as always
waiting for u became my habit
I saw in shadow
some one was coming
he was like dream
when he came
I thought this is u
but he was just friend
just a friend
he gave me
a bad news
don't wait
that he never come again
my river ,my moon ,my sun,my love
you left me
to whom should I complain ?
where should I go
in my sadness,loneliness
where is the open arms to hold me
who will care
I wept deeply
sadly
which side should I go ??
still no answer ...

I curse it....

I curse all distance all road and walls
that make us separate
I curse all days
nights
that make us separate
I curse all darkness ,cloud
rain ,snow
that make us separate
I curse all moments that
makes us separate
I curse all my blood and flash
that makes us separate
Dear friend
I curse even myself
that make us separate

I LOVE ,THEREFORE I AM

I need a glass of hope a punch of desirea bottle of luck a slice of life
I went to God I ask him for all
He asked, me "why you need all"I told ,"i want to make a garden, and call it life".
He told "what else"
I told "nothing"
I had so much love,I mix it hope, with desire ,with luck and with life.
The percentage of love was more and luck could not show itselfeven desire,even hope,
Old gardner looking at me just told"dear ,dont mix so much love with all".
I replied, "just wait"
I have enough love, he became silent .my garden completed
But no clue of desire ,hope,luck and life all became love.
Green and green
Greener than gods dream.He told me,the source of your luck ,desire and life and hope is with god. he will send it everydaybut where is source of love.I showed my my hand, your token was there.

Friend

He came once again
he became a friend
full of sorrow
they celebrated new arrival
one day not so far
they will sit together
in their old age
they will keep talking
about their love story
about River and his lover
they will imagine that days
He will smile
and
she will weep
He will remember
her smile
and she will remember
her painful love
once again he will touch her hand
he will remember his ring
they smile sadly
they will say leave it ....

shadow

I had a dream
still is there
I want to keep it safe
winter is coming
lets go to the garden
the place we walked every week
lets go to the garden that we promised
the place we jumped
we played
we made fun of life
we forgot life
lets go there
dig that corner
near the lake
then we keep my dream there
it will be for ever
as my Granny told
land never forget his promise
he will give back much more
lets go to that garden

My thought and the reality

My thought about him
was sweet as my dream
the reality was horrible
much more than a tragedy
I am walking alone
and leaving him behind
not because of hate
but because of love
I will never look back
I saw him when I should not see
I am going away slowly ....
this is my last ....
as he was center of my poem ..

Your Name

Your Name in me is a big garden full of flower

News came of your arrival

My dear Holy love
The news came ....of your arrival..
I told my hands ...and they shivered
I told my eyes...and they wept
I told my lips...and they trembled
I told my feet ...and they shook
I told my heart ...and it beat out a welcome
Then I realised your place in me forever.

My Moon

My love came once again
He became the Moon
in my dark life
He was blue and calm
but
I found him so far
cloud came and cover him
I wept deeply
when I opened my eyes
he was there again
He told me wait
this is the way
that I come and go
just trust me that I am here
He became so bright
he made my path clear
I asked him where you were ?
he told me "No where"
"just you see that I am here Now"

My River and Me

And once again i met him
he became a river
Blue and pure

it was different
my river had two faces
with one face,he assured me
to wait for him
that he is coming

and with other face
he ran out of my sight

and
when I touched him
he made me understand
and told

"This is how I come and Go"
I was deeply amazed by him

Time friendly touched my shoulders and
whispered into ears
dont give up

"Listen to his heart"

and I listened to him
with all my soul

he told,
"I come and go "
But I never leave You never

When i open my eyes,
I saw his ring in my hand.

Something happened to me.
I saw my real love ,waiting in the corner

to jump in the fire and prove all her love to him
and I jumped
I burnt deeply

for my lovely river
he will be survive for ever.

for find peace how far I have to go

I am a fallen tree

I am a fallen tree
no one can give trouble more
to a fallen tree

Dont call me brave any more I am a loser

This is the last news that I am going to send to you.I gave up yesterday when a big sorrow found my address and knocked the door for my house.
I expected a friend or lover but not sorrow.
He came when I was a little tired of difficulty of my life.
I was shocked yet I am .
Dear Daddy should I be sorry about my weakness.
I gave up and it is the reality of your brave daugther.
I have one more bad news ,I lost my hope;you know how much hope I had for future.
I lost all that hope.
Sorrow came inside my place and ruined everything.You don't know how much I am tired.
Tired of fighting alone running alone and struggling to bring family together.
It is my last news,sorrow took all that I had
I sat in the corner of my room and I wept deeply
no one was there to touch my sadness
and I tried to wash all my sorrow with my tears
My dear How could you gave up when death came to you !
I am wondering if you had pain or there was no pain
But dear daddy sorrow brought so much pain in my heart ;the place that still has so much love for you captured with the hand of sorrow.
my dear daddy believe me as always you believed me I gave up fully.
don't call me any more brave .

No no i can never be down,i can never fail.
I have achieved so much in life ,which many can just dream.Why for i am
sad.Life is so good and Sun shining bright,Moon is in all its moonlight with me.

My saturday is with me as my sun,moon and river.I need not fear any one.
I swear u dear father like a great ship i will sail the deepest of ocean and reach my
goal.

Pardon me for thinking wrong.

I was utterly astonished at his goodness

But alas

Saturday

You became the sun of my dark life
when I tried to look at you fully
I became blinded
by your pure light

"living your life "

She was wondering how she could explain her idea to him. Her new friend was attempting to explain his ideology behind life to her.
She was listening unquestioningly
He asked,"Are you listening?".She replied uninterestedly,! "Yes I am."
Later he asked her about her idea of life.
She replied sadly, that she hardly knew whether she was living or dead any more.
Her life was no more her own, So was she truly alive!?
She reminisced she had a life once, but the world snatched it away from her.
It was terrible feeling, death.
But she persevered and struggled until one day she got a semblance of her
life back.
Now she was happy again. But the world around her
started complained and mourned.
Now she was confused, why was the world unhappy
when she was alive again?
Didn't they understand her happiness and enjoy it?
It was then she realised that her definition of life was different from theirs.
What was expected of her was not necessarily what she wanted to do.
The life she wanted to lead was not the life they wanted her to live.
She asked him,"So what do you think ?Am I dead or alive?"

Not my will however,but your will done.

The meaning of her name was agirl belongs to a king's family .That name was not relevent.Later they called her by other name .The meaning of her second name was a person who pray alot.
Juxtaposition of names,it is clear that the characteristic of these two names cant be in one person.Kings family has no connection with pray.
She didnt know why her parents choose that name .Maybe no one knew what kind of life she is going to have.later she selected new name when she came to know God .It was her spiritual name .Even new identity didnt bring any change in her life.No matter what others call u .It is the only matter what identity had given to you by him.

I wept deeply

I went to God ,he told no one should be here without heart
I wept when I remember It is not with me ...

Holy Lips

I still remember him.My best time was the time that he kissed my forehead and told me
Good night baby,a holy kiss that I missed every night during the following years.
One night he didn't come It was then I understood that he had left us for ever.
I couldn't sleep with out his sacred kiss.One day they took me to his new home.I found nothing there except a fist of earth.
Trying to reach his face I buried my face in the wet earth and wished my daddy.
Good night this is your baby that you left her.
I asked him why he left us,there was no reply the only sound was that of my sister mourning.It's many years later now but I still expect your kiss and the way that
you brought peace to my sleep....

where is your root

Today I noticed an old man who happened to be our gardener;he was cutting away branches of a young tree;I was wondering why he was doing that.
I wondered what was wrong with him.I asked him why he was so cruel.The tree was
so young and I couldn't understand why he was destroying it.
He looked at me questioningly and answered in a gruff tone his reply
that shocked me.
He said that though I was right about the tree being young it was not it's roots
were in an other's land.
He stated that we need not bother about it.
However, I felt sorry for this young careless tree.Have I wondered why he had bowed over the wall in to our land.Had he wanted to take a peak at one of the slender beautiful trees in our yard?Did he want to show off his strong boughs colourful blooms and tender leaves? It reminded me of our world when travelers want to experience a new culture and reach out to new people they are sometimes snubbed by them,and scoffed at by their own people neither their roots nor their branches
are allowed to flourish.

who is ready to accept a broken heart .

One day I decided to sign that paper. It was my will that,in future,they can use my eyes, my brain,or any other organ and give it to people who really need it to continue living .People who still have time to live and need another shot at it.
what is the use of my body when my soul has gone to better place.I thought they can use my eyes,maybe someone can use it and see the world through my eyes.Maybe they can use it to look at someone they love again.Satisfied I pledged my eyes.
When it cam es to my heart though, I had to stop and think.At first I didn't want
to give it away.The volunteer helping me thought it was strange and asked me Why Not?
I couldn't explain to them.My heart bore many burdens and I didn't know if the recipient could bar them;It cause them alot of pain.Like it did me.Would they be able to use my heart well because it had been broken so many times.who knows whether it could be ever repaired.Could anybody be happy with a broken heart?
After deep contemplation I finally arrived at a decision.I decided to pledge it because I have so much love in my heart to share.Wouldn't it give happiness who is going to use my heart?

expectation

If I die
bury my body near the mountain
next to our road
keep my hand out
let people know
I am still expecting something from life

Else

Never Comes alone,So it makes me think that this word has no confidence.
It also has no fixed characteristics.Sometimes it comes with nothing and
funnily;it becomes nothing else.Don't expect any more.Then sometimes it
comes with something.Then it makes you happy and you wait for a little more.
Whenever he calls me I realise he is in a hurry when he uses else in "ANYTHING ELSE"
I reply nothing else.My dear Saturday this "else"sometimes makes me wistful not because it has the potential to do so.But because of the way it use.
"anybody else" "somebody else" "what else" "how else" and "who else"
If you notice even though it comes in the end it makes us expect more.
Tell me what else can I give you ? look I used it in the middle;and it brought me and you together.What else could you possibly ask for?

Wait just wait

How long should I wait?It was my first question when they told me wait.
Yet I remember ,In fact it is long time that I am waiting and I used to wait
wait became part of my life .Wait for tomorrow ,wait for reach your time,wait until
you be able to do that, wait a minute second but it became days,months and years.
As far as I remember waiting never left me .Even one day you told me wait until ...
you never understood how I am tired of this word.I fear even when they want to bury
me again ask me wait in list....just u tell how long we should wait?

Life is in a journey

Isaw it,while journeying.I was traveling in an Auto Rickshaw.I couldn't guess it's gende,so let me call it a "he".
I couldnt figureout where he came from;funny story.why should an ant travel by Auto?what was his purpose?He was scurrying across my seat,I came upon him suddenly.Why was he in such a hurryand why did he select a rickshaw?
who would care about this careless yet exteraordinary ant?
Suddenly he altered his course and climbed the driver's shoulder.I couldn't keep my peace any more and,I told the driver that there was an ant on his shoulder.Instantly he flicked him off.I wondered a trifle sadlyif I had just caused an accident?

smile

What make you happy and when you smile ???It comes from inside or it has no connection with your inside ???.One day he told me I dont know why but I feel you have smile in your face because you fear to cry and you want to avoid of that .He was right but how many of us have reall smile on our face ???.Give smile to your life it make it easy to continue .

Hope

Ever Since dawn she was standing out and looking in at me. Her eyes were mournful and it seemed like she was realy tired. I had no choice but to follow my mothers rule.When I first brought her in to our house .My mother had told me then strickly that she would not allow her in the house if she was pregnant.I immediatly assented and promised that it would ever happen.
Everything was perfect until last week when I found she was pregnant .It didn't take long for my mother to realise she was with child.Then my mother came to my room and told me that she must go.She refused to let her deliver here.She asked me if I remembered my promise,I answered positively.When I wanted give an explanation,she intrapted me saying she didnt want any excuses.Sadly I had to make her leave.And now I am worried about her.But what could I do?I atleast expected that the father of her baby come and take her but nothing happened.Now she is looking at me,I am standing at the window and I dont know what I should do. she is looking at me longingly and I am sure she wants to stay here.I could only stay back guiltily.
Suddenly my mother entered the room carrying abox.I looked at her hopefully.She asked me to stop mooning and bring her inside.Then she asked me to keep the box in the corner of my room to make a temporary home for her while she took care of her babies.I pranced to the door in delight and opened it wide to let in my very pregnant cat!!!!!

first lesson...

The first lesson that I learned in school was about three precious words.
The teacher told us about Father,Mother,and country.She thought us not to forget these three words.It was easy to know about the first two word because we were familiar before we go to school.Father was symbol of security and mother was symbol of love.But unfortunatly today everything changed.New generation learned Father or Mother and probably in future the next generation should learn not father no mother.I have forgotten about the third word,it was country .It also changed .Many of us even dont know where we belong?we are much familiar with Migration ,Exile,these word became next lesson for next generation.....Do u really know who and why brought these new words to our literature??????

Saturday is mine

I know alittle sad story that she told me when I was enough innocence to believe it and accept it as real.I know a little fairy who lives in an ocean and gave her soul and heart to her flute.But today when I became aware of life I couldnt believe that...In midle of way I found How saturday is amazing day .I found it and every sunday I die and every saturday reborn..

Just be yourself is it really difficult ?

True Luv

True luv, Why cant we open ourself to luv always .Do things that our heart tells us.Why ?
What hold us back ,what ?Some people luv u so much and we know ,no one can luv us like that ,but still we keep our luv ,feeling and emotion silent. Why?Follow me will tell u some day

May be I will be able to know this ? :-)May God Bless My Luv the my Luv. I am with u always :-)

Ever Confused Love with Passion?
Feeling of attraction can change more quickly that the seasons,but love is truest form,is greater than feelings,we look for that "some one" who will love us just the way we are unconditionally every moment of every day.Sometimes we think we found that true love.But once more look back and see again ...I looked back and one day I will tell you what I saw ....for sake of your life once more look back and then let me know ......

where we are ?

I am here again , with whom that I should be and no one can feel how much I am happy .
life has so many story for us and we go through all story with out experience and come out with new experience. My journey was one of that story .I had some photo of my home in my mind .I went and I couldn't find that photo .Everything changed ,Even all that I knew them changed .I decided to come back to the place that I had one story and I love that .I didn't come to finish that story but I came to complete that .This is my plan ,I am here and I am not belong to any land except the land that give me love ,hope for tomorrow .

what is the solution for broken heart

what is the solution for broken heart ? Just want to know is there any software or hard ware for that ?Is there any technology that can help ?I don't think so but if you have this experience share it with others then people can fix their broken heart.Broken heart is painful no matter where you are and who you are .It has same pain .....But I want to tell you if you have a broken heart dont go any place go to God he is the only one can help you .He will not fight with you .He will not blame you .In fact this is the password to open that door ....I believe it .